I want to taste my sadness. A shot of Jack, please, bartender.

Confession #1: I’m too insecure to let life happen. I constantly compromise possibilities and put myself in complicated situations that have little probability of ending well. I do this to myself because I honestly don’t believe that I deserve happiness.
“Happiness hit her like a train on a track. Coming towards her, stuck, still no turning back. She hid around corners and she hid under beds. She killed it with kisses and from it she fled. With every bubble she sank with her drink, and washed it away down the kitchen sink. The dogs are over.”
And I can’t let myself feel the happiness. Because to me, I, of all people, somehow have it in my head that 1) I am a horrible person and I only deserve for bad things to occur in my life, and 2) I take everything for granted and if I’m capable of being happy now there is no chance in hell that I’ll be able to experience happiness in adulthood.
I always preach optimism to all of my peers, but I was never one that could take her own advice. The worst part about all of this is that if I can’t be happy, I can never really love myself for who I am, and if I can’t love myself then I can never truly love anyone else. Thus never achieving happiness where it matters the most.
I need a cigarette and shot of whiskey, chase it with my sorrows. Because underneath it all, I’m alone in here.

bookmania:

from The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger

bookmania:

from The Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger

(via hopeful-heartache)

Fuck you.

I love being told that I can either believe in God and go to church, in order to straighten my life out, or find somewhere else to live. Fuck you, parents.
You fucking took me away from all of my friends and my support systems. You made me leave all of them behind and come back here because “you know what’s best for me at a time like this.” Well, if you think it’s Jesus, you’re wrong.

Anonymous said: Are you going to "The Beatles: The Lost Concert" movie premier in a few weeks?

Unfortunately, no. I’m poor and shit.

Poor baby Cells. They didn’t have a chance against Lady Gaga.

Poor baby Cells. They didn’t have a chance against Lady Gaga.

Trollololololol.

Trollololololol.

I found a unicorn!!

I found a unicorn!!

speckonthelense:

lustik:

Dinsosaur Beetle - Mark Massey via Colossal

This is ridiculously cool.

This = awesome.

speckonthelense:

lustik:

Dinsosaur Beetle - Mark Massey via Colossal

This is ridiculously cool.

This = awesome.

Timmy Turner has always been a stoner.

Timmy Turner has always been a stoner.

Oh, PFT.

Oh, PFT.